in the absence of you

By: Alison Lai – Class of 2015

fracture my ribs
with your resonance
and wedge songs into
the cracks of my bones.
leave for me some
remnants of a broken song,
maybe just a note, or two,
bird tunes, crooning
blues. leave just a seed
of your memory and I
will feed it water
and I will give it sun
and it will grow in the
absence of you. it will grow
so tall in the absence of you
that its roots will wrap around
the fibrous sac of my heart
and I will
have songs that sing
from the bones in my chest
but my heart will stay rooted
under the fractures, and the
music,
waiting for you to pick
the roses so the thorns
stop drilling holes in my
septum and the blue blood
and the red blood stops
mixing because I think I might
be
dying under this bouquet of
roses.

I told you that
it would grow so tall in
the absence of you,
I didn’t know
that it would bury me
in the absence of you,
too.

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